People say, there is good in everything if you monitor closely. Yes! I agree! Now if you had asked me to agree on this 3 years ago I would have said “bulls**it”. Where the good at being depressed? I wanna see the good at wanting to kill yourself, and Where can I find the good at losing everything but what you can only do is watch?
I was born a new person. There is a greater truth to ourselves, our religions our beliefs and our universe and all I had to do was walk through a storm to figure it out. Walking through a storm, as I just wrote here, isn’t as easy as how I elaborated it I know. But when the storm is over, nobody is the same person who walked in. Either you get lost and never make it out alive or if you did make it out, you are someone not even a storm can bend aren’t you?
Have you ever wondered why your life turned out to be this way? Why am I being tested again and again? What am I supposed to do to have a normal stress free happy life? When am I going to be happy? How can I find my way?
Close your eyes! And travel from your mind. Slowly as if you are on-board a spacecraft. Looking out the window as you are leaving the earth’s atmosphere, slowly your lands becoming a map, then the great oceans in blue you can’t even figure which one it is anymore, then you start to see it all in one, a circle of water, greens, clouds surrounded and maybe a little bit of snow on the Himalayas?
OK so now, eyes still closed, imagine you are in outer space, looking at earth disappearing slowly now looking like a baseball, slowly becoming a green pea, a spec of rock and finally a bright light as if you are looking at a star from your home window on a dark clear night.
Now my friend! That’s it. That is all there to it. All your problems, wars, night clubs, cheating boyfriend, unfaithful family members, disrespectful neighbors, your enemies, your best friends, your cat who’s refusing to take a bath, and your favorite pork dish which used to be playing around in the field before it was cooked. Everything is there, in that tiny spec of light you see now.
Now what? Can they escape it? Can you throw out your enemies out of it? Can your unfaithful boyfriend jump out of it and end things? Can I leave because I don’t like you being on the same tiny spec as me because you are a racist? Can you divide the spec in half and give the other half to those who do not believe in your philosopher who you worship?
And most importantly, can you even see a seagull, or an elephant or a damn son of a b*tch who takes on your nerves every damn second of your day? Or your dead uncle who made you leave your boyfriend and marry Bala from Jamaica because he has money? Do you see the colors of each race, religion, and countries separately which we are fighting to acquire as our own land and call it home?
And once you die, can you now see heaven or hell? And can you see anyone from that tiny spec who gives a damn about your death after 100 days? If you are Einstein then yes people remember him still because he found out some important stuff which we were forced to learn while growing up no offense sir! The greatest!
And then forget about all of those teachings because “oh I’m following this philosopher who my family assigned me to follow and whom I may never have seen or heard in my life or in my parents’ lives or my great grandparents for the record but it’s okay I read about them from the people who saw him and decided to write what they asked us not to do and do” Great! So much for that tiny spec of light.
My point is, become Einstein if you can and if you wanna be remembered and if not become a porcupine or whatever and live your 70 years on that tiny spec of light to the fullest because you ain’t going nowhere no matter how hard you try.
Can you throw out your enemies out of it? There are no born enemies. It’s us! We, humans, created unwanted barriers and classes so that those who went against them became enemies.
Can the unfaithful boyfriend jump out of it and end things? Unfaithful is unsatisfied. Find out your own faults in your relationship first and help him correct his. Ego isn’t gonna solve anything honorable human!
Do you think I can leave because I don’t like you being on the same tiny spec as me because you are a racist? The only race we knew as children were the 100m race at sports meet. Did you decide not to participate in the race because there is a black kid in the team? What happened when we grew older? If you made your own choice to be friends with the Asian kid at school why now letting your religion or family make those choices for you?
Can we divide the spec in half and give the other half to those who do not believe in your philosopher who you worship? When you want a bypass surgery do you go to the temple? When you need a kidney do you check the race or religion? Same Blood of course if not you die. I mean, When you were standing under the hot sun in the school morning ceremony and uttered every word out of the memory of each religious prayer did you think you need a separate space from them in the future?
And most importantly, can you even see a seagull, or an elephant or a damn son of a b*tch who takes on your nerves every damn second of your day? They take on your nerves because you let them. Eric from finance keeps on bothering you to solve the payment issues of your customer. Darling, he’s doing a job at the same company as you do and he’s pressured from his higher-ups about his performance and he needs money for his sick wife. So do you, to feed your cat or so what?
There are no low needs or high needs. If we understand each other and support each other “only if the world was so beautiful ah” Or
your dead uncle who made you leave your boyfriend and marry Bala from Jamaica because he has money? People die darling. Everyone is going to die who is on this tiny spec of light and now the planet itself is dying fact given. The person who forced you to marry a certain person because they think that he/she is suitable for you, aren’t gonna live with that certain person for the rest of their lives. Not even your parents or family. It’s you who has to deal with it.
Admit it that everyone who is older than you die earlier if its natural death and if you let them make decisions for your happiness then lord saves the queen you are on your own when the domestic violence starts or he/she decided later in life that they don’t want you anymore. Because you’re grandpa who mads you marry him cannot make him stay period!
Do you see the colors of each race, religion, and countries separately which we are fighting to acquire as our own land and call it home? Do you? According to some philosophers we aren’t born again. So why do we need to bomb Uzbekistan and make it our home? We ain’t even returning to this planet again. Some say we are born again but not the same place. So I bomb Uganda this life and make it my home after going through hell with war and half of my life on earth fighting for it and dang son I was born in America the next. Sh*t! Now I have to make America great again!
And now remind me why you are depressed? Because you have to make it out of this alive?
Well, having to go to work every day is boring I know but is it worth killing yourself? What if you are born in North Korea next life and “f*ck, I wanna go to work every day in Australia it’s fine, as long as I don’t have to get shot with a missile on one of my days traveling to work”
Just do yourself a favor and close your eyes whenever you are at a turning point of your life, and travel out of this plant using your mind and watch the planet far away from space.
And QUESTION, Is what I’m about to SAY or DO or DECIDE right now, going to be of any worth after all? Will it make any changes inside this tiny spec of light or should I just forget about it and move on with my life until I die a natural death?